Have you ever................

Have you ever had something just go snap? I am talking about things just falling into place. Well atm the food has just fallen into place. Talk about getting it right. Tonite as an example I had turkey breast strips, stir fried with green beans with mandarin juice and greek herbs with rosemary. Very yum.

Had a good day gym time - a nice hard session with weights - back and shoulders then an awesome session boxing. Total shoulder conditioning. I have ordered myself a punching bag that should get here in a couple of weeks, this will be great on weekends, do a bit of a round or two with the bag. Can't wait.

tomorrow I have off as my aunts are visiting from Melbourne and want to catch up..............they are a bit of work but harmless enough. I haven't seen them for such a long while. They are 5 & 8 years older than me, so more along my age group rather than my mothers. hehehehe. Most annoying thing is I miss State of Origin tomorrow night, would be good to see a total white wash by the Queenslanders. My son is lucky, he is actually going to the game. Anyways, they wont hit Brisbane until lunch, so I am going to have a good 3 hours at the gym..........1 hour walking, 1 hour weights - probably legs and then an hour of body balance to stretch it all out. Then off to meet the relis...............

Well I best go now and get some beauty sleep. hehehehe

Ciao!

All Fired UP

Livin with my eyes closed,
goin day to day
I never knew the difference,
I never cared either way
Lookin for a reason,
searchin for a sign
Reachin out with both hands,
I gotta feel the kick inside

All fired up
Now I believe there comes a time
All fired up
When everything just falls in line
All fired up
We live an learn from our mistakes
All fired up, fired up, fired up - hey

Aint nobody livin,
in a perfect world
Everybodys out there,
cryin to be heard
Now I got a new fire,
burnin in my eyes
Lightin up the darkness,
movin like a meteorite

All fired up
Now I believe there comes a time
All fired up
When everything just falls in line
All fired up

We live an learn from our mistakes
All fired up, fired up, fired up
The deepest cuts are healed by faith
Now I believe there comes a time
When everything just falls in line

We live an learn from our mistakes
The deepest cuts are healed by faith
Now I believe there comes a time
When everything just falls in line

We live an learn from our mistakes
The deepest cuts are healed by faith
Now I believe there comes a time
When everything just falls in line

We live an learn from our mistakes
The deepest cuts are healed by faith
Now I believe there comes a time
When everything just falls in line

We live an learn from our mistakes
The deepest cuts are healed by faith
Now I believe

Anyone who was a pub crawler in the eighties would know this one! I was thinking about my postings today and driving home this song came on the radio. Well I cranked it and sang it as loud as I could. Talk about firing me up.

Sweeet!

How hungry do you get for it?

So what makes that dedication an all time consuming hunger for you??? In my mind I go through pictures of myself, of what I would look like, the finished product. But what keeps that picture alive in the waking hours of the day, the day where you start off great, but somehow gets lost by the end of it!!!

Now I have announced that I am trying to work my way back from the Abyss, stepping around the edge, toying with the ability to stay out or fall back in.. What is it that makes this all seem so hard. I should be so motivated and yet I don’t appear to be. If only we knew how the inner functions of the brain work? To remember to flick that switch on and keep it on!

So today the food has been of good quality and equal proportions (you would be proud of how many veges I am getting in Liz), I have eaten 3 meals so far today and I am soooooooo full! But I know the answer to that. I have slowly dwindle my food intake over the last 6 weeks, that I was not eating enuf and then having a binge on something totally wrong. So I have to now teach this body once again to accept good whole food, at set times – all the while making sure I get the correct macros in at the right times. Back to feeling sooooooo full. This too will pass, as my body starts getting used to eating again, it will start looking for the food required at the set times. All a matter to flicking the switch on and keeping it on.

Looking at the girls who competed this weekend and they all looked sooooo hot, I want that too but I have to get it, work it and just do it. Nobody else can get me there, it has to be me, so it is up to me to get my game plan on. Looking back over my blogs, I don’t know how many times I have said this and quite frankly I think I sound like a broken record. It is a matter to getting my head in the right spot again and adhering to what I want, let nothing stand in my way.

Ciao!

Rocky Balboa in Rocky 6

"If you know what you are worth then go out and get what you are worth, but you got to be willing to take the hit"

You have to find out what is stopping you!!!!

Okay, so I am still alive. I have been absent from computers at home due to the time spent on them at work (never ending story there). I have been very remiss of blogging, facebook and even my emails for a month. I think I have about a 1000 of unanswered emails that I need to sort through this weekend.

I have been full at it at work and consequently have let all things else suffer…………….BEHAG journey, house and home, social life and myself!!!!! But this downward spiral really does have to stop. It really is a amazing to watch when you let your guard down just how much can really go down hill. Then you start feeling pretty crappy on top of that and you start to become a recluse. Talking to a friend of mine who is currently part the way through her Naturopath Degree, she said that there is a result of a study done that women who are going through menopause or suffering symptoms of, often will become reclusive during that time. Downside to that is when I stay at home more, I become more lethargic and all I want to do is read which results in a widening of the rear end!!!!! Damn!

In an article I read, Dave Robson says “It is part and parcel of human nature to have bad days, times where low motivation levels prevents us from reaching our full potential”. I have to agree with him that accepting this statement results in failure on my part, to which has been the case the last month. But looking at the failure as a learning curve as well, the lesson learnt is to keep the eye on the prize at all times. I have to program myself to accept failure, and gear up for success from the lessons learnt. Something in his article also rang true for me, that when you are highly motivated, you do put more effort into you reaching your goals and the exact opposite when the motivation is at an all time low.


I have noticed that when my motivation is at an all time low, I don’t visit blogs, or motivating websites or even turn my computer on at home. Its like a wave of despair washed over you and the grey haze around you doesn’t let you see the door, then after a while (a month in my case) you remember you have fog lights and you turn them on to find that door. Whoops passing a mirror in the way you notice there are some changes as well. I wish my fog lights were like my car lights – automatic! Interestingly enough when I do have these moments of sanity, remembering what I want, the automatic button wants to kick in. Like now, and I am thinking “What the hell happened to the last month” It was a ‘Homer Simpson “DOH!”’ moment!

So heres to a new start and hopefully another lesson learnt. Note to self – Try to keep that Automatic button on!

So now I leave you with a pretty neat focus poster! In the words of the great Arnie "I'll be back"!

Ciao!

Oohhhh! I forgot..............

what having a period feels like! Not happy Jan, so over the pain! Doc says that if and when (which is now) I do get my periods back, the first couple maybe killers. You know what, give me DOMS anyday over this crap! Overit! I think I need to go take some naprogesics.

Okay whinge over and now moving on. Have been amazingly strict and clean with my eating. Did a good light weight session this morning (belly pain a little bit of a hinder on the strength side of things - so just had a play) with Chris. Did a bit of back and shoulders. I am hoping that I can have a good session tomorrow. I miss doing heavy weights sometimes and today was one of those days. You know I never realised how draining Ttom can be. Early to bed tonight I think. Going to be a late night tomorrow night, as it alway seems to be on State of Origin night. We as a group of friends, head over to ones place, have a pot luck dinner and then watch the game. So I will have to try and get my stuff together before I go out. Determined to keep on the current path, so plan and prepare is the way to go.

So a short and sweet post, not very comfortable atm. Talk soon..............

Ciao!

Make the most of this power!

Well banner says it all at the moment. Food is good, killing it in training and had some drop in scale weight. This current mode of thought and process is working out great.

On another note, I finally have a visit from Uncle Ttom! This traveller has been absent since the 2nd of November, so long drinks between visits and affects are not comfortable atm - belly has a low dull ache. Ah something I didn't miss.

Training is set for the next 10 to 12 weeks, with a very mixed up program from coach. We worked together this morning on some good moves which I am excited about trying out.

Also really starting to enjoy the interval resistance sprints on elliptical. Be good to be able to do that on the treadmill. One day, I will do it! But atm, following with heavy duty cycle intervals and xtrainer.

Well time to log planned food and get clothes ready. and bed.......................................

Ciao

xx

Crisis Centre

Well hey there.



It looks like that I have a personal crisis that I must deal with while keeping true to my regained vigour in my quest. This is okay, it can only strengthen me, the only thing is that money will be very very tight for a little while, so all treats are out atm, and a learning curve on learning how not to spend so much. Unfortunately with this slight problem, it will affect my allowance for a trainer and coach. No matter, I will not let this affect my determination.



So enough of that, not to bore you any more of it all.



On another subject, all the boys and girls looked fantastic yesterday, shame I couldn't stay for the final event at the ANB show. What a total surprise being able to catch up with the awesome "Fernster". Hey girl you are looking very happy. I am still busting to find out how Traci went. I have lost her mobile and as I am not in the gym tomorrow morning, I now have to wait till gym on tuesday. Damn! And how good did Deb looked and she got third place. Wahoo! all that work certainly paid off. Well done and congratulations.



Well I have better sign off, I am going on a walk down to pick up the car we currently have for sale on the common.



Talk soon.



Ciao!

Up early! Ran a marathon last night in bed according to my husband.......no wait, his exact words where " were you training for a body building competiton last night"...Hehehehehe! YES I AM! LOL, how bizarre!

On a good spin of the week, after being extremely vigilant and putting in some awesome training, being provided with some pretty good DOMS, I had a very very nice drop throughout the week. So week one almost a success - but wait there are 2 more days to go. I have been up this morning and got all my food ready to take with me, so no problems there. Except dinner, don't know if I am going to stay or not - depends at the time.

I was reading Katie's Blog and I went a looked back at what I wrote exactly one year ago today, well I didn't but I did post tomorrow!! Title was "Not so Simple" On the surface, losing and gaining weight is simple; take in more food that the calories you use through metabolism and exercise and you gain weight. Take in fewer calories than that and you lose weight! Simple..................or not! Losing fat is difficult because your body fights hard to keep you at a constant weight - lose weight rapidly and the body release hormones that make you hungry and slow your metabolism down.

Now getting back to my great surprise this morning, it is truly interesting that after you are rewarded with results from a week long of dedication, concentration, motivation and determinaton how it can make you keep on the straight and narrow. But I really think this is the point where you really need to concentrate and maintain your thinking process and keeping your eye on the game plan. As I was eating my grilled salmon and steamed broccoli last night, watching my husband eat his pizza, the wee food beastie was talking to me - you know you have worked hard all week, one small piece is not going to hurt you. But when the wee food beastie whispers something like that into your ear, you know you ain't gunna stop at one piece, especially if it is a really good pizza, and the way my husband was drooling over it, I assume it was good! But you will be pleased to know, I did smack that wee beastie down and just stuck to my dinner and now I am ever so pleased I did. I was rewarded this morning for my efforts. Wahoo! Gotta love that.

Well I need to go have a shower, find something to wear that I will feel comfortable in, pack my food and head off to give some major yelling to the lovelies at the ANB.

Ciao!

Keeping it with you

So now yesterday I posted on how I have wasted 8 months of quality time to my BEHAG and also admitting that I do need guidance, I am not invincible. So the struggles that I have placed myself into over the last 8 months seem so stupid..................but they have also been valuable lessons. This will add to my arsenal to maintain this current focus. I will remind myself daily of the wasted time.

Today started fantastic and is currently ending with a slight anxious feeling. Last time I was at a competition, I sprouted that I would be half way to my goal to compete at the end of the year..........and now I have to face the people that I sprouted to, in exactly the same position I was then. I know I shouldn't feel this way, but I am worried that I will be judged. So a slight extension has to be made to my BEHAG!

I wrote on my office wall today, as I spend more time there than anywhere else at any length of time : "Do you want to compete?" "Ask yourself". So this is what I am looking at 5 days a week, everyday, all day and it is something for me to discuss with myself on a day to day basis. This week has been an exceptional strong week - good training (fantastic actually) and brilliant food.

So renewed vows and motivation but how do we continue with this journey. I wonder????? One day, one step, one bite at a time, I guess. Simplify.

My aim is to increase my level of commitment along the way. Increase my 'mental toughness'.

Amazing how something small can help in something. I have been suffering DOMS in quads all week and coming up the end of the week, I had chest and tris to do, then 20 odd mins of interval training, atm I am doing resistance sprints on elliptical trainer. After the 3rd sprint, I was thinking, shit my legs hurt, I could forgo the rest of the exercise and give my legs a bit of a breather. In front of me, was Traci on the treadmill, doing her last steady walk before tomorrow and giddy-up! Kick on! My whole thought process changed to ............'if you complete this session, your legs do not hurt, nor does your chest, you are one day closer to that BEHAG. What keeps you motivated? I am interested to know!

Well thats for now folks, gunna go to bed. Need my sleep! been up since 4.00am.

Ciao!